If you were still here I could share with you all the insignificant things that only you and I would understand and appreciate.
If you were still here I could tell you how sorry I was for being so judgmental when we were married.
If you were still here I could wish you happy birthday, on this day, which would have been your 40th.
But you are not still here.
You left this life 1 year, 5 months, and 18 days ago.
You left this life before I could forgive you.
You left this life before we could be true friends again.
Today, I say to you what I said to you on our six year wedding anniversary when we did not know if we would stay married.
Today, I say to you what I whispered in your ear when you were dying.
Today, I say to you what I think to myself every time I become overwhelmed by your death.
Stephen, my heart is always with you.
But today I also add, I forgive you and thank you for all you have taught me.